I always said when my youngest started Grade 1, I’d get back to doing something… I started a soup company when I was pregnant with my son, in 2009. I loved it. I sold my soup in 3 markets, online and had a “soup truck” one year. But then I just stopped being passionate about it. Making the same soups over and over again wasn’t filling the creative outlet I needed. I had no idea what to do. I felt like I had zero skills. I spent countless hours looking at courses online but nothing really stood out.
I must have been driving my husband crazy, because he finally said to me one day, “Why don’t you get some help?”. Real nice, I know. But I guess it’s what I needed to hear.
After googling around I found someone who was a psychologist and based on her profile picture looked really nice. The first meeting was tough. I was so overwhelmed with emotion. I felt like I was at this point in my life where the 4 years of university I had taken and all of my life experiences and even owning my own business had led me down the wrong path. Not only did I have no idea what I wanted to do, I felt like I needed to start at the beginning. I’m 40+ years old, how long do I really want to go back to school for?
I think what helped the most was seeing it from another perspective. Yes, it was scary, but only because I couldn’t see the future. She kept reassuring me that I had skills, that there were tons of jobs out there that I had never heard of and it was a process, the answer would come.
The process was so interesting and I can’t believe how much I learned about myself. It was a lot of work, but when you think about it, why shouldn’t it be? How much time would you spend researching and planning a trip for your family?
When I read this now, I can’t help thinking, I must have been depressed? And am I having a midlife crisis, lol? But really, I just wanted to find that one thing, apart from my family, that brings me passion and purpose. And I think figuring it out now will save me from major depression in the future. I am now embarking on this new career of mine and I’m thrilled!! Even though it’s really scary to go back to school, and to realize I know nothing about this new world I’m diving into, it’s so worth it. #yolo right?